Thursday, May 20, 2004

just got off the phone with taylor hanson this morning.

he says he's really thankful for the fans for seeing them through 7 years of music.

oh, and he's not from the philippines.

to those who bothered to listen in WLSFM this morning and heard the taylor hanson interview, yes, i'm sanya. i was the 'and i'm freom the philippines!' girl.

i was the airhead.

my question was stupid.

taylor hanson made fun of me.

but hey, i got to talk to him. i really did.

I GOT TO TALK TO TAYLOR HANSON!!

i have the tape to prove it and the DJ's back in LSFM!

pa-kunwari pa kong ekek pero sige na, lash out na, oo na, teenybopper na ako.

ay pwet. i still got to talk to taylor kahit pinagtawanan nung DJ yung 'i'm from the philippines' slip up ko.

pero pucha pati si taylor nakigaya rin.

eh yaan ko na! NAKAUSAP KO PARIN SI TAYLOR! that is one step! i will meet them and i don't care what it takes. i have to get this thing done with so that i can fully get on with my life. para i can focus na, para may peace of mind na ako.

kahit na late si helga at mejo napa-english pa ko ng pa-teeny sa GMA, ok lang, it was all worth it.

i love throwing around the world "sony music"! i love it!

"we're from sony music..." i LOVE IT!

sobrang bait nila agad, sobrang, wow, sony, pag dating, street team lang pala, pero wala na silang choice, we got in na! we got in na! WE GOT TO TALK TO TAYLOR!

kunwari no big deal, kunwari i don't care, kunwari ang bobo pa ni tay, pero sa loob loob ko, pucha, hanson, hanson, hanson, and aking walang kwentang obsession nung 11 years old pa ako.

parang its something i have to do before i'm finally old. 11 ako when i was a fan, bata pa ko, ngayon 18 na, officially an adult. kaya siguro todo hanson-mode nanaman ako kasi narerealize ko na malapit na akong tumanda at mawawalan na ko ng panahon sa mga immature teeny things na ginagawa ko.

so, ito, tatapusin ko na ang immature teeny thing, and by meeting hanson, ayun, ok na ako. ok na ako, ok na yung part ng sarili ko na fan. wala ng 'void' yung "teenage star obsession" ko. i can go on with my 'life' na walang unfulfullilment in my teenage star obsession crap.

i don't know if i'm lucky, of curse lang talaga to. pero this is who i am. i've been like this for seven years and wala na akong magagawa but to ride with it. i don't know if its because i don't have anything better to do, or gusto ko lang mag release ng energy or it's the fear of growing up. hindi ko alam, pero i love the fact na the music makes me feel like i'm 11 years old again. na regardless of all the college rejections, UPLB depression, friends who are downright weird... i'm still a kid after all. i still have the right to cry about the shallow things, i can still whine about nonsense, na kayang kaya ko pang magpacute at kung ano ano pa.

PWEDE PA AKONG MAGING IMMATURE.

of course iba rin kasi and effect ng music talaga, iba rin talaga yung band. iba talaga yung music. mas naaasahan ko pa nga yung CD ko keysa sa ibang mga tao. at least yung CD hindi nawawala. anjan lang. naiisip mo na kahit magkanda leche leche at pinagtatawanan ka na sa walang kakwentahan ng buhay mo (puchang DJ ng LSFM pero ok lang), pwede kang makinig ng Hanson and think that there is still good in this world after all.
na hindi ka talaga iiwanan ng diyos na magisa, lagi ka niyang iiwanan ng something to make it all ok.

it just so happens na it's in the music where i find comfort in.

kung hindi ka naman inooferan ng comfort ng mga tao jan, eh saan ka pa ba tatakbo?

kung ano yung alam mong nagpapasaya sayo at laging nanjan, nagkataon lang na Hanson CD yun, kaya, ayun. at least lumiligaya ako ng konti. naiisip ko na hindi naman pala lahat eh wala ng pagasa. may hanson pa na kakanta at gagawa ng musika para hindi naman ako lubisang masiraan ng tino.

see, what music does to you, though it doesn't solve the worlds problems, it still provides a temporary release.

tapos, puntahan mo mga everdearest closest labsi doodles na mga tao sa buhay mo at iyakan.

pag tinaboy ka nila, mag Hanson ka nalang ulit.

at least ang Hanson, laging nanjan.

wag mo lang iwala ang CD mo.







[[sanya whored herself to the world at 9:23 PM]]