Wednesday, May 19, 2004

LIVING UNDER THE SHADOW OF COUNRTY, MINUS THE ACCENT

sanya just spend a good 15 minutes entertaining 4 professors in AIT.

sanya smiled a lot, laughed at their side comments, and made the appropriate witty remarks.

one of the interviewers questioned her ability to speak english.

"miss coo, your english is very impressive and articulate, what elementary school did you come from again?"

miss coo answered "UPIS, sir" and smiled.

"really? only UPIS?"

miss coo is nervous, she did not want to mention this little fact. she does not want anyone to know this because not only is it degrading, but it also makes people lose faith in her 'intelligence', whatever it is.

"miss coo?, you only studied in UPIS?" the interview looked at her and waited for an answer.

"i attended three years of my education in australia, sir" she said it with a behind her famous oozing fake smile, almost unaudible.

"UPIS students aren't known for their english skills, and that explains everything" interviewer said a matter of fact-ly.

miss coo smiles and pretends she's loving the fact that she grew up in such a place.

interviewer number two points out to interviewer number one, three and four, "that's why her english is good, it's because of ther 3 years in australia"

miss coo licks her lips, purses them together, grits her teeth, and smiles again.

sanya is smart, witty, sarcastic and a very confident speaker because she grew up in australia. she is opinionated because she grew up in australia. she would never amount up to anything if it wasn't for get 3 years in australia.

and for the nth time of hearing that, sanya is starts to believe it.

but sanya is still smiling. and its beginning to hurt.

on with the other things.

thanks to the process of attempting to transfer to UPD, i have wasted my entire summer vacation running to and fro the two campuses meeting their requirements.

and if i do get into one of the 6 courses i applied in, i would have to do the same thing again.

i swear, i've had enough of this sucking up. i'm sick of my sugar-coated smile and a voice to match.

i'm sick of being polite. i'm sick of being nice.

can't i just lash out and scream "you don't get it, do you? i hate UPLB! i hate your little campus! i hate the povinicial ambiance! i hate small-town living!" i would add "i grew up to see the world, and not just rot in confinement in this fucking rural town without a decent mall!" but that's a little too extreme. i'll just sound too much of a brat whining to her millionaire father.

i swear, when i get out of UPLB, prof. tapay would see how wrong it was for her to lecture sanya coo on campus loyalitites. i would see to it that she realizes that she is messing with a force larger than herself (literally, too). my father does not donate shitloads to my mothers laboratory in UPD just so they could push her eldest daughter around in another campus.

a much lower campus, too.

yes, i am the daughter of two genuine nerds.

and yes, i am overly self-absorbed, but i have put on the charade for too long already.

once i get out of UPLB, goodluck nalang sa kanila.

which just shows why the AIT people reacted that way...it's my fucking karma for being an abolute bitch.




[[sanya whored herself to the world at 12:09 AM]]