Tuesday, June 01, 2004

thank you lord for getting alfa in upd. i would've died if she didn't. fitch, biboy and i weren't even thinking of the option of alfa not making it in upd. the thought of being in lb is bad enough without the fact that 3 of us are in up greenest pastures.

blah. i hate lb. i hate it.

and i love candy.

have to go to upd early and get my physical medical exam over with. plus i need my stupid admission slip that i have to rot in line for. being in up is crap. but i have no right to complain since i chose to put myself in that situation. it just sucks that my mother can't even make a few arrangements to make things a little easier. oh well.

that should mean laying off my back and stop making our maids go through my stuff.

it's not fun. it's not nice. my stuff are my stuff and whatever the maids find in my room isn't their business and have no right in telling my mother about it. i know what i am fucking doing. i am not stupid. this is my life.

i am 18. then i'll be 19, then 20...wake up.

sometimes, i'm going to come home in the middle of the night. and sometimes, i'll stay over my friends house. and i might reek of cigarettes and alcohol.

"si sanya po umuwi nangangamoy sigarilyo"

punyeta.

do they ever think that maybe i was with people who smoked before they told my mother who is a paraniod woman with highblood pressure?!?!?

the best part is the Kink cakes novelty tablets. they actually told my mother that it's my boyfriend's and that he left his gay pills in my closet. what the fuck?? what the hell would janzen do with gay pills?? it's actually insulting.

so my mother got mad and told my why i have pills in my room. mom, it's a novelty gift from my debut. it came with condoms, huge wooden penis ashtrays and sticks of cigarettes. that is what you get when you turn 18. it's a joke. my friends are smart-asses. my friends are actually smart and witty people. they are not boring. i'm sorry that they didn't give me socks, or bible-books. and i did not throw them away because it's their gift and i want to laugh about it later.

i can't wait for them to find the KY jelly i use to make my sculpey dough softer to knead.

[[sanya whored herself to the world at 9:25 PM]]